Thursday, 31 October 2013

Where am I?

Last week I did a lot of travelling. It was the first time I have been away from home for more than one day in three years. Before that I would be away on retreat for long periods a few times a year. I could leave my two cats easily back then but when I got my first dog in 2010 everything changed. After that came the goats, then the hens, then the bees and another dog...  It was time to integrate the peace I had found on 5 years of retreat into everyday life.

Then last month I decided I wanted to learn more about natural beekeeping so planned a trip to the Natural Beekeeping Trust in England.

While I was away I occupied a lot of new space -
the bus, the airport, the plane, the juice bar, the beautiful homes of my natural beekeeping friends, the taxi, the garden, beside conventional beehives, beside 'Sun Hive' bee nests, the car on a four-lane motorway, the rest-stop toilets with grass wallpaper and piped bird-song, the lovely shoe shop, the health food store, the conservatory, the sheep shed, the library...

Everywhere I went there I was.

Scenery changed, conversation deepened, I noticed similarities, differences, I laughed, I cried (missing Mighty as the plane took off), I was amazed, I was intrigued...

Even with all these different feelings, sensations, thoughts and emotions, everywhere I went there was a 'me'ness - a presence that was still and peaceful at its core, a balance and rootedness in the present. Happiness.

This presence is what a daily practice of meditation is allowing. It re-minds us in our bodies that peace is here, right now. It is never outside. When we look for peace outside ourselves there is always a feeling of abandonment and disconnection because we are splitting off from the very thing we seek.

All the love and belonging in the world resides in this moment, silently waiting to be seen.

Where am I? I am here.
Where else would I be?

May we all have a bright, happy and healthy week ahead, fully aware of the love and peace at our core.


“Meditation is the only intentional, systematic human activity which at bottom is about not trying to improve yourself or get anywhere else, but simply to realize where you already are.”
Jon Kabat-Zinn, Wherever You Go, There You Are

I am so grateful to have found expert house and animal sitters on the website Mind My House - a retired Australian couple on their trip of a lifetime to Europe who were loving travel but missing their menagerie of animals at home. They had a wonderful time here in Donegal, made lots of new friends in Dunfanaghy, looked after my hairy friends very well and left the house cleaner than it was when I left.

I realise there isn't much about natural beekeeping in this post. I will write more when I have further digested the trip - it was wonderful :)


  • Tomorrow the weekend retreat starts at Ards Friary. I will answer calls and emails next Wednesday.  
  • New Tuesday class in The Church Hall, Hornhead Rd, Dunfanaghy 7-8pm
  • Monday classes in Letterkenny will start back on 11th Nov
  • 4 wk Heart Art Course starts Thursday November 14th 7 - 8pm In The Pastoral Centre, Letterkenny

 Be Happy